Ommmmm... How Do I Do This?

I have long been aware of the value of meditation, in theory, but had not been brave enough to try it myself, until this week.

I've been intending to incorporate meditation into my lifestyle for over a year now but I felt blocked. This might sound silly to some, to others it might resonate... In all honesty, I was scared to try meditation, I felt a huge amount of fear, apprehension and anxiety which stopped my from trying. Maybe I wasn't ready.

Last summer I bought a meditation pillow. I thought the pillow would help remind me to meditate, ground and focus me. Instead it sat in my closet, unused for months.

This week, the beginning of my 'Life Evolve Project' I finally made the leap of faith and started meditating for 5 minutes each evening. I used an 'app' on my iPhone called Simply Being which I'm enjoying.

The first three evenings I meditated for 5 minutes a night, I found it surprisingly enjoyable and beneficial. By the 4th night I was ready to try 10 minutes. Despite barking dogs and my dog Daz trying his best to get my attention I completed the full 10 minutes.

Coming out felt a little odd like the end of good yoga session; my heart felt lifted, my soul felt filled with love and there was a genuine sense of peace. In fact I was so overwhelmed by unexpected emotion that I started to cry. Tears of grief for not having discovered this powerful tool earlier. I felt sorrow for all the years I spent trying to find other ways to cope, often unhealthy and damaging alternatives. I wept also with relief and joy at having finally discovered such a powerful and meaningful tool. 

My personal discovery of meditation has only just begun. I think incorporating meditation into my lifestyle will absolutely be life changing for me. 

~ Future Forward