Therapy - Shanti Centre
I traditionally had mixed feelings about therapy, over the last five years I saw four therapists, but I didn't connect with any of them. Part of the problem was that I didn't trust or understand the process. Around this time last year I invested in seeing a therapist regularly for at least a year. It hasn't been easy or comfortable but it has been extremely rewarding. Looking back at the last year I am so proud of my courage, dedication and progress. Subtle but very real shifts have occurred which have changed my life. I am so thankful for this gift that I am investing in myself.
Acupuncture - Burnaby Acupuncture
I don't hold much faith in Western medicine, sure it has a place but it's not always the best or only way approach. The problem is that it often works in isolation, we are holistic beings, our body effects our mind and vice versa. Such narrow focus seems extremely limiting to me.
I admit I was scared to try acupuncture. I have a lot of courage but can't stand needles, even seeing someone get an injection on TV makes me squeamish. In 2006 I injured my shoulder snowboarding (rotator cuff tear). I tried everything and after 6 months of ongoing pain I finally broke down and tried acupuncture. It healed me.
This time around it was my hormones which motivated me to seek out an acupuncturist. Being a woman can be tough, fluctuating hormones heavily impact moods, disposition, out look on life and ability to cope. I've always suffered from terrible PMS but it took me year as to link my extreme shifts from pessimism to optimism with my ministration cycle. When I finally made this connection it was a huge relief for me because I honestly had felt like I was going crazy on a monthly basis!
With awareness and observation I now understand that when I'm ovulating I feel wonderfully confident, hopeful and optimistic. I feel like anything is possible, the world is my oyster. My magnetism and ability to influence and charm were heightened. I could nail any interview or presentation.
Conversely, the way I feel during the week or so of PMS is overwhelmingly hopelessness and pessimism. Really all I want to do is curl up in a dark corner alone and hide.
Obviously monthly shifts of this intensity can severely impact careers, relationships and general well being. The constant fluctuations are unsettling and confusing.
Body Talk - The Body Talk Clinic by Christa Lynn
A friend introduced me to Body Talk, last week I had my first session, it happened to be on the same day as my acupuncture session.
Interestingly one of the first things Christa noted was that my Yin energy was low or weak - exactly the same thing my acupuncturist had noticed hours before!
The first thing that came up was fear in my lungs. Christa detected the following self belief - "I can do it myself". This really surprised me because my family always reminded me that from a very young age my favourite saying was "I can do it my big self". Obviously they found my fierce independence amusing but on reflection I think this self belief has narrowed or limited my ability to receive help or collaborate with others.
The second thing that came up was anger and resentment stored in my liver and a mantra - "It is safe to shine" This really resonated with me, from a young age I learnt to contain my fire, my passion and energy as I felt it overwhelmed people. I sensed that my parents were already struggling to cope and didn't want to be a burden so I learnt to dull my shine for the benefit of others. Recently one of my biggest struggles has been connecting my true self, my dreams and my purpose (career), I can see now how hard that would be if I wasn't
The third thing was my skin, holding my back from creating bonds, as well as receiving love and support. The self belief "I am responsible" came up which strongly resonated with me as I have always felt responsible for my own safety and survival. For as long as I can remember I learnt not to trust others for my well being and learnt to only trust myself because that was the only thing I could control.
The final area was my hurt left shoulder where I carried a lot of anger, sadness and grief. Christa also noted that my collar bone was out of alignment. After working on this area the pain was gone and my shoulder wasn't as rounded, my posture was more open.
I look forward to my next session!
~ Future Forward
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